weekend ramble

 It's been a hard week. I started out very upbeat, positive. I was working on the premise that I would have a permanent job offer by the end of the week.

Friday that all came to nothing. I found out I did not get the position. So I have to start over again in the search process, practically from the beginning. In my current career changing line of work I can't apply again at the same place if they've turned me down. Because why they turned you down simply will be the same for whatever position you shoot for. Without going into more details, the bottom line: that sucks. This is definitely a business where they have got to get to know you, and that groundwork takes time. *sigh*

Anyway... As my strain worsened through the week -- I guess I felt the likelihood of not getting the position coming unconsciously -- my daily writing fell off. I did manage to write every day, but the amount of time got less and less. Friday's writing was 5 minutes.

On Friday after work, I went out and commiserated with friends about my lot. Pity party. Woe is me. I hate myself when I get like that. Anyway, then I woke up sick this morning. I'd felt it coming on, and my son was finishing a week of being sick, so I should have expected it. But it still sucks.

So now, instead of the weekend being a chance to recharge my general batteries to strike out for another week, I have been laying in bed reading, medicating, and sleeping.

Maybe I'll feel better by next weekend. Hope y'all are having a decent weekend doing the things you want to do.